The Equinox time is when yin and yang energies move into balance for a brief moment before Yin or Yang energy becomes stronger, depending on where you are in the World.
Most of us would feel bad, defeated, or angry for acting in a way we had no intention of doing it until it happened. We want to be perfect, but perfection is a prison. Even though we don't belong behind bar, our mind find a way to punish us.
...your holidays will NOT be perfect, but it will be real.
Anyone can be at any level of logical or emotional decision making and be off-center. If you don't know which direction to take, remember that your heart is the compass.
Self-abandonment is not a virtue but an act of insecurity.
Remember, you are special. But don't let it go to your ego. Your gifts come with responsibilities which are mainly to uplift the energy of the people around you and the environment. You can't fulfill your callings if you are feeling exhausted and depleted.